This past month was certainly interesting. I finished NaNoWriMo on Sunday, a few days early, which to me was – and still is – incredible. It’s something I’ve been attempting to do for the past six years. It’s something that I always, always gave up on. I’d get frustrated because I felt like I wasn’t good enough. I would give up because I doubted myself, because I never cared about whatever I was working on enough to finish it.
This year, as I mentioned earlier, I had a plan. I also had, for probably the first time, a really supportive community on twitter who held me accountable, who encouraged me, and who cheered me on. I placed second in a first line contest, which gave me a huge boost in confidence. I mean, it’s only one line, but still. People voted for me.
And I wrote.
I wrote every day on my lunch break. I wrote while Eric was doing his homework (and he has a lot of homework this semester). I wrote on my weekends.
Somewhere along the way, it became a habit to power up my laptop every day and open up that document, so much so that I’ve felt kind of lost over the past few days. I told myself I needed a break. One week off. I’ve been reading. Having Buffy marathons, thanks to Netflix. I’ve worked my way through the first one and half seasons. Since Sunday. I’ve slept like 12 hours each night. I ordered some books on revising and editing from the public library. I designed and coded our wedding website. And now it hasn’t even been a week, but I’m bored and itching to write again.
So. Where does that leave me? Flightless isn’t done, even though I really like the place I ended. I really rushed and skipped over a lot to get to that point, though, so I think my goal for December is to go back and fill in those blank spots. Not a problem. I can do that. I also want to rewrite some parts of it, just because, well, some of it is really, really ugly. But overall? I’m so happy that I don’t know what to do with myself.
After that, well. There are several things to do. First, I’ll send it off to Roxanne, who’ll critique it as my prize from the first line contest, and my wonderful friends Sarah and Isabelle, which will be another nerve-wracking experience in itself. And then we’ll go from there.
So. I guess what I really want to say is thank you to everyone who cheered me on and helped me along and encouraged me and made me believe in myself over the past month. I couldn’t have done it without you. Thank you, thank you, thank you.